Lightning

Lightning
Lightning Boy
Good Boy Lightning

Good Boy

He had a deep throated bark
And he meant what he said
He had a strong strong spirit
And now

I lie here on my bed

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My world is less
But I was blessed for a while
He was a dedicated protector
He brought with him warmth

And a smile

He knew there was evil
He knew there was danger
He was nobody's pretend friend
To loyalty and affection no stranger

Lightning
Lightning Boy
Good Boy Lightning

Good Boy

He had a deep throated bark
And he meant what he said
He had a strong strong spirit
And now

I lie here on my bed

And I miss him
But it's not about me
Oh the pain of knowing
That only with real love

Can there even be

Tragedy


Neils
8:39 am
January 29th 2014
*transcribed and arranged
12:58 pm
01/29/2014

N.....again

I heard my dogs Bark this morning

And

I thought....
Life listens to itself
Life speaks to itself

Out in the open
Loud and clear
Here and there
Far and near

Sometimes I feel
Like my dog
When he chases his tail

Sometimes life is
Such a joy
When it all goes clear
How can we fail

Celebrate the day
Look upon the newly fallen snow

There is no seen and seer

When in one we know

Dance..
Dance..
Dance like the wind
Dance..
Dance..
Dance with the wind

As it is in the beginning
So shall it be

In the end

I heard my dogs
Bark this morning

And I realized
I visualized
It all conceptualized

Into we are all
Each others ears nose and eyes

And I smiled
Because there's no cool
Ending..
For this poem

But so what


Neils..
11:48 am
01/06/2014
*
transcribed this morning
10:17 am
01/07/2014

N......again

What kind of question is that

A junkie is a junkie
And a whore is a whore
What ever happened to love
Is it just another score

What ever happend to truth
Is it sinking into the pit
What ever happened to love
Is it just another hit

Nobody loses their way
Nobody needs to come back
Not every extended hand
Is an intended attack

There is no price to pay
Only fear is in control
There's always another day
That we can save our soul

Walk me to the edge
Play this game with me
Oppositional defiance
Is the only way to be free

Everything doesn't matter
Everything is turned around
When good is evil and evil good
The world is upside down

You take it all too serious
You can't take away my thrills
Especially my biggest one
Makin you pay my bills

I'll never hit rock bottom
But I can grab your shirt
As I'm goin over the edge
And together we can share the hurt

I'll never endanger
Everyone around you
That is something
I'll never do

There is no turn in the road
It's not my decision to make
It's always up to you
Will I be the one you forsake

　

Neils
9:21 am
12/30/2013
*transcribed this time
8:37 am
12/31/2013

N....again

Thoughts after a 2 mile ice run

All you young men who threatened me
And challenged me to a fight
You better get your shit together
You better get your heads right

Something was watching over you
Because if you'd have put your hands on me
It's would have immediately gone to life and death
It would have immediately gone to

To be or not to be

I always carry at least three blades
And as crazy as it gets now a days
You'd have been loosing blood
And going into a daze

Before you'd have figured out
You were being killed
You were already dead
And all for that stupid stupid thrill

Of you being a bad ass
Ready to go post to pillar
Because frankly I'm not a fighter
Anymore

But I am still a killer


Neils
6:14 pm
12/21/2013
*
transcribed this time
6:37 pm
12/22/2013

N....again
　

　

　

　

I will not be dragged into the shadows

I may go there to manuever
But I will go under my own will
I will not be dragged into the shadows
Because others have had their fill

Of fighting against the dark
The evil relentless ways
Of men who've fallen to the curse
Of what will others say

And thus when the final measure
Is taken all they will have is false pride
All they will have is the temporal power
To be in on the inside ride

The first respect is self respect
And sometimes it's all that is left
When the power gets done swirling
When you are cast out alone and bereft

But that's where the door is
To love and the natural beautiful earth
That's where the shimmering light
Meets the radiant waves

And why any of it has any worth

　

　

Neils
12:48 am
11/29/2013
*
transcribed this time
11:35 am
11/29/2013

N.....again

Big Hero Shit and Lifes Cheat Sheet

Big hero shit
and
Lifes cheat sheet


You know I can
Write all this big hero shit
But when it
Gets to the end

I'll be remembering
What a beautiful day it was
When I was
Spending time with friends

Whether it was
Cleaning a lot
Mowing lawns
Or cutting trees

I'll be remembering
What a wonderful moment
It was when we were smiling
Laughing sweating being free

When the world was
A handshake
A joke
A look in the eye

When the truth
Was more
Than spoken words
And not telling a lie

It was a blue sky up above
A winter wind reminding us
We should have
Brought our gloves

Ahh yes....
Sometimes the only thing
Written on lifes cheat sheet is
Don't forget to ask the question

What is love

Neils
9:35 am
11/08/2013
*
transcribed this time
10:43 am
11/08/2013

N.....again

Hey Baby....

I'll rock the world with you baby
I'll defend your freedom to the end
I'll share the stars and moon
But I'm never going to be just a friend

I'll cry rivers till they reach the sea
I'll always be real and never pretend
I'll be your true to the blue and friendly
But I will never be ....just your friend

I would dance with you in moonlight
I will not lie or misrpresent what I intend
I will love you till the ends of the earth
But never ever never ....be just your friend

I will phoenix with you in the fire
I will have the courage to bend and mend
I will love your moans and screams
Believe in you and your dreams

But Baby

I just ain't never gonna be just your friend

　

Neils
4:56 pm
10/23/2013