The Passing

The passing of a child
Before their parent's time
Is such a crime
Is such a crime

How can this happen
How can the world go so wrong
There is no comfort for this loss
Not even from an Angel's song

Only a flood of memories
After the shock
Somewhere a door has been left open
A gate unlocked

An outrage an offense to Heaven itself
And then sorrow sorrow and then more sorrow
There is only the empty now
And no more tommorrows

There is no turning back from this tragedy
There is no comparison to another
How can a child die
How can a child die

Before his mother


Neils
10:45 am
07/31/2015
*
transcribed this time
10:32 am
08/04/2015

N.....again

His mane surrounding his noble head

How lame and limp are you if you're 

Killing a lion because you can't get an erection

How empty and souless are you if you're

Killing endangered species as your chosen direction

Deep inside where human feelings exist

And man deserves to have pride

Their are tears flowing and falling

Unashamed and not even trying to hide

Cecil was unique unto his own

A spirit walking around on all fours

His mane surrounding his noble head

A proud inheritor of  lineage and lore

I bow my head and contemplate fate

I am between rage and sorrow

I lift up and smash the gate

May ruination follow all of your tommorrows

Deep inside where human feelings exist

And man deserves to have pride

Their are tears flowing and falling

Unashamed and not even trying to hide

Cecil was unique unto his own

A spirit walking around on all fours

His mane surrounding his noble head

A proud inheritor of  lineage and lore

Neils

6:37 pm

07/29/2015

*

transcribed this time

10:08 am

08/04/2015

N....again

You can....you can always tell

Bless the animal lovers of this world

All the full grown men and women

　

All the boys and girls

Who reach out with a caring hand

With good will in their souls they understand

　

It does take patience

It does take skill

But let our days be happy'

Let our hearts be filled

　

Because there will be reward

Far far more than we can give

My babies have made me a better person

They've taught me how to live

　

They can come with four legs

They can come with wings

Real joy is there to be had

They give us songs to sing

　

It takes a responsibility

It takes an opening of arms

You can always tell an animal lover

They've been touched by magic charms

　

　

Neils

6:01 am

11/253/2014

*time approximation

transcribed this time

7:20 am

11/26/2014

N.....again

You can see it all around you

You can see it all around you
In your hometowns your cities
There is an evil loose that lives
to take and take without pity

Merciless is the new cry
From the mediocrity gone mad
They never truly feel glory
Nor do they experience sad

Power alone is their aphrodisiac
Is their elixir to gluttonously drink
They no longer honor honor
They no longer bother to think

They seek not wisdom
Nor do they set out to explore
The men are slugs and thugs or wusses
The women holes without souls and whores

They steal from the people
They lay waste to the land
With their ravenous greed to feed
Upon the beautiful and the grand

Burn all the libraries
Individuality be damned
The world is slipping away
Like sand through the hands

Emptiness is upon us
Now comes the dark without a dawn
The final battle calls to us
On which side of the river are you on

Which side of the river are you on



Neils
7:16 pm
07/21/2014

Who's is this

You can't make someone else be free
You can only offer them the opportunity
You can not make them accept change
You can only speak wisdoms name

They have to see the light
They have to walk out of the night
They have to learn to learn
They have to hold to discipline stern

We can only fly if we have wings
We alone must uplift our voice to sing
We must face the fierce grace of eternity
We must through tears learn to see

I must say this truth is my own
I must stand even when all alone
I will find the light of insight
I will I will unwaveringly

Do what's right

　

Neils
9:04 pm
02/26/2014

　

　

　

Everything happens for a reason

I don't believe that crap


Sometimes it just sucks
Sometimes it's fucked up beyond all belief
Sometimes the hits keep on comin
Grief upon grief upon grief

But you keep on fighting
You keep on living
You keep on loving
You keep on giving

You put your shoulder to it
One more time
You get back up
You drag yourself to the line

You can learn from everything
Yeah and that's a bunch of crap too
Sometimes it's all you can do

To survive it to scrape to scrap
To crawl through

You get back up
You drag yourself to the line
You put your shoulder to it

One more time

　

Neils
6:52 pm
02/07/2014
*written over the last
three days

N.....again

I must

I've been living in an intellectual wasteland
Like reading is the most boring thing
There is nothing in their empty heads
That makes them want to sing

That wait for you in bookstores
Like when are we going someplace else
There is nothing of ideas they want to discuss
All they're truly interested in is their self

They split their attention when you speak
To them of something of which you truly care
They're absolutely amazed when you stop
They just look dumb founded and stare

I've been living in an intellectual wasteland
Where art is just some shallow la di da
They could care less about a painting
Or a sculpture or anything you ever saw

That had any heart and sweat and divinity in it
That has any echo of infinity in its form
Empty pattern after empty pattern they do go on
Even their way to rebel is but a way to conform

I must find another set of invitations to accept
I must find another for whom I can reach out
I must find the presence of those who share
The driving force inside to find what its about

When speaking of the roads to creativity
And how to get magic projects put in play
I've been living in an intellectual wasteland
I must find another way

　

Neils
7:16 pm
02/01/2014

Lightning

Lightning
Lightning Boy
Good Boy Lightning

Good Boy

He had a deep throated bark
And he meant what he said
He had a strong strong spirit
And now

I lie here on my bed

****
****

My world is less
But I was blessed for a while
He was a dedicated protector
He brought with him warmth

And a smile

He knew there was evil
He knew there was danger
He was nobody's pretend friend
To loyalty and affection no stranger

Lightning
Lightning Boy
Good Boy Lightning

Good Boy

He had a deep throated bark
And he meant what he said
He had a strong strong spirit
And now

I lie here on my bed

And I miss him
But it's not about me
Oh the pain of knowing
That only with real love

Can there even be

Tragedy


Neils
8:39 am
January 29th 2014
*transcribed and arranged
12:58 pm
01/29/2014

N.....again

I heard my dogs Bark this morning

And

I thought....
Life listens to itself
Life speaks to itself

Out in the open
Loud and clear
Here and there
Far and near

Sometimes I feel
Like my dog
When he chases his tail

Sometimes life is
Such a joy
When it all goes clear
How can we fail

Celebrate the day
Look upon the newly fallen snow

There is no seen and seer

When in one we know

Dance..
Dance..
Dance like the wind
Dance..
Dance..
Dance with the wind

As it is in the beginning
So shall it be

In the end

I heard my dogs
Bark this morning

And I realized
I visualized
It all conceptualized

Into we are all
Each others ears nose and eyes

And I smiled
Because there's no cool
Ending..
For this poem

But so what


Neils..
11:48 am
01/06/2014
*
transcribed this morning
10:17 am
01/07/2014

N......again

What kind of question is that

A junkie is a junkie
And a whore is a whore
What ever happened to love
Is it just another score

What ever happend to truth
Is it sinking into the pit
What ever happened to love
Is it just another hit

Nobody loses their way
Nobody needs to come back
Not every extended hand
Is an intended attack

There is no price to pay
Only fear is in control
There's always another day
That we can save our soul

Walk me to the edge
Play this game with me
Oppositional defiance
Is the only way to be free

Everything doesn't matter
Everything is turned around
When good is evil and evil good
The world is upside down

You take it all too serious
You can't take away my thrills
Especially my biggest one
Makin you pay my bills

I'll never hit rock bottom
But I can grab your shirt
As I'm goin over the edge
And together we can share the hurt

I'll never endanger
Everyone around you
That is something
I'll never do

There is no turn in the road
It's not my decision to make
It's always up to you
Will I be the one you forsake

　

Neils
9:21 am
12/30/2013
*transcribed this time
8:37 am
12/31/2013

N....again

Thoughts after a 2 mile ice run

All you young men who threatened me
And challenged me to a fight
You better get your shit together
You better get your heads right

Something was watching over you
Because if you'd have put your hands on me
It's would have immediately gone to life and death
It would have immediately gone to

To be or not to be

I always carry at least three blades
And as crazy as it gets now a days
You'd have been loosing blood
And going into a daze

Before you'd have figured out
You were being killed
You were already dead
And all for that stupid stupid thrill

Of you being a bad ass
Ready to go post to pillar
Because frankly I'm not a fighter
Anymore

But I am still a killer


Neils
6:14 pm
12/21/2013
*
transcribed this time
6:37 pm
12/22/2013

N....again
　

　

　

　

I will not be dragged into the shadows

I may go there to manuever
But I will go under my own will
I will not be dragged into the shadows
Because others have had their fill

Of fighting against the dark
The evil relentless ways
Of men who've fallen to the curse
Of what will others say

And thus when the final measure
Is taken all they will have is false pride
All they will have is the temporal power
To be in on the inside ride

The first respect is self respect
And sometimes it's all that is left
When the power gets done swirling
When you are cast out alone and bereft

But that's where the door is
To love and the natural beautiful earth
That's where the shimmering light
Meets the radiant waves

And why any of it has any worth

　

　

Neils
12:48 am
11/29/2013
*
transcribed this time
11:35 am
11/29/2013

N.....again

Big Hero Shit and Lifes Cheat Sheet

Big hero shit
and
Lifes cheat sheet


You know I can
Write all this big hero shit
But when it
Gets to the end

I'll be remembering
What a beautiful day it was
When I was
Spending time with friends

Whether it was
Cleaning a lot
Mowing lawns
Or cutting trees

I'll be remembering
What a wonderful moment
It was when we were smiling
Laughing sweating being free

When the world was
A handshake
A joke
A look in the eye

When the truth
Was more
Than spoken words
And not telling a lie

It was a blue sky up above
A winter wind reminding us
We should have
Brought our gloves

Ahh yes....
Sometimes the only thing
Written on lifes cheat sheet is
Don't forget to ask the question

What is love

Neils
9:35 am
11/08/2013
*
transcribed this time
10:43 am
11/08/2013

N.....again

Hey Baby....

I'll rock the world with you baby
I'll defend your freedom to the end
I'll share the stars and moon
But I'm never going to be just a friend

I'll cry rivers till they reach the sea
I'll always be real and never pretend
I'll be your true to the blue and friendly
But I will never be ....just your friend

I would dance with you in moonlight
I will not lie or misrpresent what I intend
I will love you till the ends of the earth
But never ever never ....be just your friend

I will phoenix with you in the fire
I will have the courage to bend and mend
I will love your moans and screams
Believe in you and your dreams

But Baby

I just ain't never gonna be just your friend

　

Neils
4:56 pm
10/23/2013

Fear Not the Monsters and Angels

There's a numbness in the soul
Drifting through the air
Searching all about
And taking every dare

It's coming for any inspiration
It's coming for any resolve
It feeds off troubles and woes
And doesn't want them solved

Everything is taken back a notch
Everything is pulled back a step
It now operates without any mercy
Compassion forgiveness or regret

Whatever your passion is
To make this world a better place
There is an evil that has risen
And it has come to degrade grace

If you love dogs
It wants them to suffer more
No big deal if they are mistreated
It wants us knocked off the center of our core

If you love the military
Know of the sacrifices that they make
It wants the pride taken from their stride
Their victories seen as phony and fake

If you love your country
It wants you guilty and ashamed
It wants the negative only emphasized
It wants us bloody broken and blamed

This thing has been loosed
It's opportunistic and selfish in every detail
It takes as it's value not in its winning
But the sick twisted joy of seeing you fail

Know that it's in the culture
Know that it's all over the press
Know that it's sole purpose is to see you
Devalued stressed and depressed

Becareful in using your logic
Reason is not its primary seed
It'll tell you what you want to hear
But to give itself time to do its dirty deeds

Becareful in your avoidance
Becareful in pulling too far back
It's only giving itself the room
To come at you with a back attack

Breathe the open air
Take in the morning sun
Take joy in the simplist things
That you manage to get done

There is a monster in our midst
It runs in rivulets and rivers of pain
It changes into many shapes and forms
It changes it's approach and names

Believe and have faith
Hear the rain and its healing sounds
Look up into the darkest sky
And know that a hammer is coming down

Fear not the judgement of angels
Their singing swords of steel are real
And though you may tremble at first
The blood of your enemy does grow

To have its appeal

Neils
10:53 am
08/17/2013
*
transcribed this time
12:40 pm
08/17/2013

N....again

Boots on the Ground

With respect to Chris
I will run down the road
I will take careful aim
I will stand ready to reload

I will have faith in steadiness
And in my Brothers in Arms
I will put myself forth
To protect them from harm

I will put kit in my pack
A little coffee and cream
I will sweat it out
I will carry forth the dream

I will not succumb to lies
I will not forsake the brave
I will sit alone on a lonely road
And remember how many he saved

And will with unblinking eyes
Remember the enemy's death
Every day I live is precious
Every tear laugh and breath

Good Night my Brother
I see the Sunset and the sail
I see a lone Viking ship go up in flames
You took straight on your challenges

And did not fail

Thank you for digging deep
And for finding what you could give
Thank you for your love and honor
Thank you

For the way you lived



Neils
10:47 am
02/04/2013
*
transcribed this time
11:24 am
02/04/2013

N....again

I am

I am a Hunter

I am a hunter of the tyrant
And the minions that do his bidding
I am a hunter of Benghazi killers
And those that laughed as if they're kidding

I am a hunter of the monsters
That would break into my home
I am a hunter for those invaders
Who would strip me to the bone

Because I believe in the 2nd Amendment
And the real belief that is down deep
So yeah I am a hunter for every single
Low life stinking traitor sell out creep

I have sighted in my rifle
And I am aware of when it is open season
I am aware of the arrogant ignorant beasts
Who stalk me without remource or reason

I have practiced at the range
Till I can place my shot where I aim
And yes I see that I am mocked and ridiculed
By the mentally deficient and twistedly insane

I know it is not only my guns they want
I know they want total control of my life and soul
So yeah I am a hunter and I will bear up
Whether it be in the heat the rain the sleet or cold

I am a hunter like my fore fathers gone before
I know the lay of the land and the distance inbetween
The lies and the filthy disguise they wear to take from me
My family My friends My Freedom and all that means

So yes I am a hunter
And I will take my oath and rise with gun in hand
I will do whatever is necessary to remain
A free and honorable man



Neils
10:19 pm
01/28/2013
*
transcribed this time
8:52 am
01/29/2013

N....again

The Truth

The truth of an accurate arrow
The truth of a snipers aim
The truth of a boxers blows
As he fights through his own pain

The truth of a baby newborn
The truth of a flower in bloom
The truth of an open window
Curtain blowing in an empty room

The truth of changing seasons
The truth of the waves on the sea
The truth of passing time
The measure of eternity

The truth of a smile or a tear
The truth of life or death
The truth as told by young or old
Can be found in each and every breath


Neils
6:43 pm
01/21/2013
*.
transcribed this time
6:52 pm
01/21/2013

N....again

My tribe is dangerous

My woman is dangerous
My Children as well
We will not be disarmed
To face the fools from Hell

My dog is dangerous
My cat is too
And I don't feel bad
When a mugger is beaten

Black and Blue

My thoughts are dangerous
My writing burns down the house
Of those who recommend
When we're attacked to remain

Quite as a mouse

My guns are always loaded
My magazines are always clean
I mean what I say
And I always say

What I mean



Neils
10:25 am
12/18/2012
*
transcribed this time
10:30 am
12/18/2012

N.....again

Now you are gone

Loki is gone
And all I'm left with is this sobbing

Loki Loki Loki
My heart  is broken beyond repair
Thank you for loving me
You always showed you care

No matter what was going on
You were always there
Thank your for every day
My soul My soul

Has been laid bare


Neils
8:13 pm
11/26/2012